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The Day You Say Goodnight by Hale

[Intro:]
Take me as you are,
Push me off the roadthe sadness,
I need this time to be with you
I'm freezing in the sun;
I'm burning in the rain
The silence;
I'm screaming,
Calling out your name.
And i do reside in your light
Put out the fire with me and find
Yeah you'll lose the side of your circles
That's what i'll do if we say goodbye.
To be is all i gotta be
And all that i see
And all that i need this time
To me the life you gave me
The day you said goodnight.
The calmness in your face
That i see through the night
The warmth of your light is pressing unto us
You didn't ask me why
I never would have known oblivion is falling down.
And i do reside in your hear
Put out the fire with me and find
Yeah you'll lose the side of your circles
That's what i'll do if we say goodbye.
To be is all i gotta be
And all that i see
And all that i need this time
To me the life you gave me
The day you said goodnight.
If you could only know me like your prayers at night
Then everything between you and me will be all Right.
To be is all i gotta be
And all that i see
And all that i need this time
To me the life you gave me
The day you said goodnight.
She's already taken,
She's already taken
She's already taken me
She's already taken,
She's already taken
She's already taken me.
The day you said goodnight

[ Who I Am ]

Name: berline
Nicknames: berls, lil vampire, piggy, ling
Date of birth: 06 Aug 1989
Horoscope: Leo

[ My Loves ]

Drinks: Ice milk tea, Lemon tea, Green Tea, Peach Tea & lots more
Movies: alots
Songs: Rap, R&B, Hip Hop, Love songs, Oldies & Classical music

wish lists_____
NeW cLo+HeS
NeW n!Ke DuNkS
D!G!+A| cAmErA
NeW bAgS
NeW hA!Rs+Y|E
L1R4 15 points

[ My Detests ]

Drinks: Rootbeer & Gasy drinks
Movies: Star Wars
Songs: Techno & Trance

[ The - Timeline ]

[[*Girl's ~~Past~~ Histories*]]

my very 1st blog
my oct blog
my nov blog
my dec blog

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+April 2005+
+May 2005+
+June 2005+
+July 2005+
+August 2005+

Thursday, August 11, 2005

like ma buddies..
hope they're fine..
hope mervix's fine..
hope cre's fine..
hope i'm fine..

hope everybody is fine & doing well..

`berls..
-where are u-i still miss u-the times we spent- ):

+ berl*adel + 6:10 PM

Tuesday, August 09, 2005

went sch la.. for national celebration ytd..
aft tt went to meet ian to tk ma card back..
headed home after tt & met up with friends in town..

dinner in town as usual.. then went clubbing..
with buddies, sis & azreen(tt hot babe)
oh wells.. ytd was quite alrite i guess..
spent all ma money away la..

didnt talk much thou.. been thinking lotsa things..
oh well.. hmmm.. cre's friend drove us back..
ermmm.. then Jess accompanied me at void deck la..
cos sis went momo after coco latte.. (x
Jess stayed near me mahs.. so well, get her to accompanied me..
hmmm.. she's tired.. can tell tt from her face & the way she talked..

reached hm at abt 5.40am like tt lo..
then i chatted with mel awhile on phone..
then i bath after chatting..
went to bed at ard 6.40am..
woke up at 12.20pm today.. (:

might be going out later.. wanna see fireworks..
*smiles*

i'm so damn lost..
i'm loss with words.. i'm confused..

`berls

+ berl*adel + 2:25 PM

Saturday, August 06, 2005

5th August'2005

school as boring as usual..
aft sch went shiks hse..
was crazy.. took photos..
aft tt went marina south for steamboat..
suppose to meet Ching but in the end nv..
well.. 3 pple said they not going for steamboat..
then in the end i'm so suprised & shocked by them..
Pauline, Jesslin & Ian.. hee.. *i'm really happy*
they bought a cake.. alrites.. mj & mel were into it as well..
they knew tt plan long time ago..
hmmm.. i'm super duper suprised & shocked till no tears of joy come out la..
was really touched man.. *gosh*
brighten up ma day.. i'm so damn happy.. hee..
after steamboat, went mel's hse lo..
Cre met us under mel's block.. hee..
she waited quite long la.. *i felt so guilty*
oh wells.. we alighted at sembawang mrt station then took cab to mel's hse..
hmmm.. mj went hm with her mum cos she's not feeling well..(carry on reading pls)

*dong dong dong* the clock strikes midnight!.. *ma birthday* (:

6th August'2005

Piggy boy sang me birthday song.. hee.. so touched..
then received birthday smses.. (:
was surprised Pui Cheng remember ma b/d.. hee..
hmmm.. on cab hor, very funny lei..
Got a sms la, Yiya sent one lo.. *laughs*
she's sitting beside me & she wish me happy b/d in sms.. *faints*
was really crazy tt day.. i'm really happy la.. (:
oh wells.. met up with Cre under Mel's block.. hee
then we headed mel's hse for mahjong session.. (:
blah blah blah..

SUDDENLY!.. lights went out.. mel's rm totally dark..
Mj came in with strawberry tarts with candles on it.. hee..
they sang birthday song for me.. *smiles*
i so happy okies.. nv been so happy before lei!.. (:
blah blah blah..
mahjong session ended at ard 3am plus or 4am..
well.. then before tt we took photos.. *smiles*
sent Yiya home with Cre.. hee.. (:
then i went hm second.. lastly, Cre.. (x
chatted awhile on cab sia.. was tired sia.. CRE most tired..
took a photo of her when she fell asleep.. so cute when she sleeps!..

Jo's sick.. poor thing.. haha.. cos i wanna her to sing me birthday song instead "singing" in sms..
ahaha.. oh wells.. i'm just happy la okies?.. (:
i lost ma ez-link card!.. ):

alrites.. met up with ian for awhile.. then headed hm after tt..
then went town met up with sis..
lunch at barker's inn.. (:
movie after tt & dinner at crystal jade..
headed home then planned to go indochine.. (:
however nv go in the end la.. ):
oh wells.. cos it's boring if 2 pax go there..

`berls outta here

+ berl*adel + 11:58 PM

Wednesday, August 03, 2005

i'm the silliest happy girl today!..
cos of JO!.. aha!..
dunno her very well.. but still, i think she's nice!..
funny, cute, interesting.. ARTISTIC as well!.. (:

oh well.. i'm PISSED OFF la.. peeps, u shld know!.. (x
hmmm.. hopefully fri i could get to meet Ching or Cre..
hopefully fri is a fun day.. *smiles*
i kinda miss the past i had with a person.. wells..
thoughts of her in ma mind the whole day..
i dunno why la.. *arghs*

i got lotsa good friends ard me.. so i'm blessed thou i may be so unhappy..
Reef, someone i can turn to(in msn).. she's really sweet.. *hugs*

watching channel U now.. so nice.. aha!..
Jo watching too i guess.. (:
hmmm.. well.. tt madam is so damn chio!.. (x

went town just now with sis.. she got a mp3 player..
then we headed to wheelock.. went NYDC to have dinner..
oh wells.. then went to Zara to shop.. (:

`berls

+ berl*adel + 10:58 PM

Monday, August 01, 2005

well.. ytd went town.. got a hair cut!..
i saw alot of pple in town.. aha!..
kinda miss someone.. ):
met up with burger lo!.. (:
then we went to KFC for dinner..
tt pple working there sucks!..
spoilt ma mood la.. damn it!..they got working attitude prob!..

headed to Herdeen after dinner.. then walked around..
looking at girls as usual.. sis bought a shoes!.. nice!..
burger burger.. such a poor thing.. i pity her..
cos she got one damn lousy gf la..
whatever.. that STEPHAINE is too much!..
burger so nice to her & all.. yet she dun treasure it..
BITCH sia!.. *arghs* ma blood is boiling..

oh wells.. headed to Plaza Sing then.. aha!..
burger got tt turtle key chain.. oh cute!.. (x
saw burger's friends.. sophia & daren..
gosh.. then after tt i asked burger, tt daren is 21 yrs old?..
got lotsa tatoos?.. & she's in hair dressing?.. burger all ans YES lo..
alrites.. it's the daren i know for 1yr like tt la.. but i nv meet up with her..
aha!.. (x

alrites.. i din go sch today la..i'm sick.. aha!..
i miss ma friends.. (:
oh wells!.. hafiz lao gong nv go sch either..
gonna go study le.. cos Ching said she's studying now!..
aha!.. well.. been smsing with Ching these few days..
she's funny & cute.. (:

`berls

+ berl*adel + 6:36 PM

Sunday, July 31, 2005

hmmm.. going town to have a hair cut..
tomorrow dun feel like going school..
seeing doctor tomorrow bahs.. aha!.. (x

so tired.. aha!.. Ching so funny..
oh well.. ma Kyo xiao zhu zhu funny too..
1st time chat with her in msn.. (x
hmmm.. Ed's at Penang now.. will be back on Wed..
gonna meet up with her.. aha!..
she gonna teach me maths.. (:
meeting Ching next fridae bahs.. hopefully we can make it this time round..

`berls

+ berl*adel + 4:53 PM

Saturday, July 30, 2005

damn.. comp siao like tt.. the colour display..
well.. later having tuition.. ):
hmmm.. went out ytd lo..

after sch, went home then met up with Jia Jia for jogging..
then from bukit batok jog all the way to bukit timah..
met up with Jess, Mel & joven for dinner..
aha!.. ytd was so funny la..

well.. went home, bath & all..
i hate being alone.. esp when i'm walking along the roadside..
then all the grave yards there.. *freak*
aha!.. then went out after bathing..
i'm happy, thus i put some make up arhs.. (x

hmmm.. went to Cine for dinner..
uh huh.. it's not me.. it's sis & azreen.. (:
then got 2 guys asked if they could sit beside us..
cos the seats are empty anyways..
then we started chating lo.. aha!..
those 2 guys damn handsome la!.. *smiles*
they started the "chit chating" session first..
at ard 12.15am like that, they went off..
they asked if there's a chance to meet up & stuffs..
Han took sister's number.. aha!..
i didnt even give ma number thou.. (:

oh ya.. so handsome.. gosh!.. they're really handsome!..
Han is 21 yrs old & hsaim is 22 yrs old lo.. (:

well.. reached home at ard 4am.. then i wash up..
slept all the way till ard 3pm like tt la..
was so damn tired & all.. (x

`berls
*getting ready for tuition*

+ berl*adel + 4:47 PM

Thursday, July 28, 2005

sch today.. boring like hell!..
tt stupid programme arranged by sch!..
DAMN IT LA!.. SO INSULTING to me..
say abt sex thingy la.. blah blah blah..
then said tt homosexual intercourse is nth..
then said it's very retarded.. what the hell.. #@$%@#$!*@#

hmmm.. well.. Jia Jia & Mel nv go sch today!..
bad bad kids!.. aha!.. (x
didnt get to see her today at all..
well.. buddy was late for school with Cindy..

oh well.. i skipped EC.. was too tired & weak..
then went to causeway point with friends.. (:
then met up with Ryann Lao Gong.. aha!..
well.. hmmm.. took neos with Jess & Shiks lao po..
alrites.. i look so ugly in the neos.. *sighs*

hmmm.. memories bought back somehow..
cos tt place.. well.. ma buddies all know why..
tried not to think & talk abt it but i failed to do so..
i dunno what's wrong with me la..
oh ya.. then today, in class, listen to some songs..
then think of Jake.. ):
ytd the superstar, got one song is chi xin jue dui..
i think of jake too.. hais.. dunno la..

i'm abit siao today.. i admitted it..
well.. accidently slapped Pat.G..
i'm wondering if she's mad at me.. (x
anyways.. she's cute arhs!.. *smiles*
Ryann Lao Gong also very cute.. *laughs*

i like Ryann's shirt!.. i like tt colour!.. (:
Ryann's naughty!.. naughty & playful!.. so damn touchy!..
she pop me just now.. *arghs*
nvm.. she gonna die in ma hands next time!.. *laughs*
well.. she's sure huggable..

might be meeting Ching next friday..
aha!.. to study.. (:
i still haven decide the place yet.

`berls

+ berl*adel + 6:00 PM

Wednesday, July 27, 2005

ytd, i'm happy.. cos i saw *her* & her sis in toilet..
aha!.. it's very sudden de la.. so shocking..
well.. 1st thing in the morning lo.. i so happy..
but i dunno why.. why i dun dare to look at *her*
perhaps i'm shy.. ma heart will jump out?..
i dunno la.. or am i escaping the fact tt i still like her alot?..

well.. Jess was back in sch ytd!.. so happy.. aha!..
she's one open minded, silly, cute, out-going, funny & crappy girl!.. (x
hmmm.. ytd, FINALLY compeleted ma art durn EC lo..
oh ya!.. with the help of PAULA & WAN TING la.. (:
after EC went to canteen.. then sat down chit chat for a while..

i did saw *her* & her sis at study area but i didnt walk pass them..
well.. it's good to know that she's been studying.. (:
i just felt happy ytd.. i dunno why.. aha!..
well.. then went home with WAN TING lo..
we took one round 184 lo.. (:

ermmm.. then when i reached home, online for awhile & check mails..
then chatted with Jessica.. *smiles*
then i'm so happy.. i told her why.. aha!..
it's good to be happy.. i admit.. but on certain stuffs, i'll be happy..

alrites.. i didnt online for too long.. (x

well.. today in school.. kinda tired.. dunno why i kanna cough..
not serious one la.. but i did cough at times..
hmmm.. today i wisphered into Benedict's ear..
then nearly kiss him.. but i never la.. aha!..
was telling him tt somebody's butt is like getting bigger..
i know i'm bad la.. but it's the fact tt person's butt getting bigger mahs.. (x

ermmm.. oh ya!.. morning.. saw buddy & *her* & her sister..
so sad sia.. buddy sick for a long time le.. then she nv go see doc!.. ):
well.. when i received the reply letter from *her* then i know she's sick..
hmmm.. so many pple falling sick sia.. aiyo..
ask them see doc, all so stubborn sia.. *faints*
hopefully they rest well, drink more water & get well soon..
`i'll be praying for those who are sick..

oh ya!.. a 28 yrs old guy wanna be friends with me..
then his name is andrew lo.. *pukes*
he gave me his number in friendster la!..
it's true!.. JIA JIA saw tt mail in friendster as well..
`i felt disgusted..

`berls.. i pray for *them*(buddy, her & pple close to me)

+ berl*adel + 7:23 PM

Monday, July 25, 2005

sch dimissed us at 11.30pm..
so boring sia today.. ):
aha!.. but luckily got jia jia la.. hee..

hmmm.. after sch, headed home!..
then met up with Jia Jia at Yew Tee at 1.30pm..
we went to CCK stadium for a jog..
but then they closed la!.. ):
so in the end went to gym lo.. hee.. (x

then hor.. we saw this girl, very chio!..
she got a JC look la.. but she's not from JC de lo..
then we went to measure our weight..
then went to toilet.. aha!..
tt girl went into the toilet too!.. she's so funny!..
she walked passed tt hand dryer, then the hand dryer got sound sia..
she started laughing & apologised to me & Jia Jia.. aha!..
so cute la she!.. (x

then i told Jia Jia if i were a guy, i'll go for this kinda of girls..
then Jia Jia also say if she were a guy, she will go for this kinda girls too.. (:
hee.. then we headed to town.. looking for swimming suit..
we took cab down la.. aha!.. i felt so guilty..
cos Jia Jia paid for the cab fare..
hmmm.. gonna treat her something next time..

well.. it's raning cats & dogs la.. then we almost wet.. ):
dunno what's wrong with pple sia.. they SIAO!..
keep staring me & Jia Jia..
izzit wrong to wear a t-shirt & shorts to town with a pair of track shoes?..
*whatever*

aha!.. hmmm.. in the end, Jia Jia didnt get her swimming suit.. ):
ermmm.. we headed to Taka coffee bean..
then ordered Caramel & Ulitmate ice blended with cream (:
nice nice.. we saw someone!.. aha!.. Shhhh.. dun tell u who izzit.. BOO!.. (x

oh ya!.. then after that we headed home lo..
we saw the Rui En.. she's so damn cocky!..
so proud like tt.. so what if she's a actress & singer?..
I HATE PPLE LIKE TT SIA!..
so the YAYA PAPAYA!.. *faints*

ermmm.. Renee smsed me.. hmmm.. hope she's fine..
well.. Jovi called me too.. (x
then asked where am i & said she wanna meet me..
what the hell.. ask me go CCK!.. i dun wanna!.. aha!..
later Wathone see me, kill me sia.. (x
oh yaya!.. Ryann lao gong called me this afternoon too..

overall.. I'M HAPPY today..

oh my!.. ma Jessica tt "si san ba"!.. aha!..
she's sick.. gosh gosh!.. i hope she's fine!..
i miss her lots.. no fun in school today..
felt uneasy without her ard crapping with me.. (x
*jess, see this dun kill me arhs!.. i'm ur "smelly san ba" lei.. aha!*

`berls

+ berl*adel + 6:05 PM

Sunday, July 24, 2005

went tanning with sis today.. aha!..
didnt tanned much lo!..
we only get to tanned our back!..
so pathetic!.. ):
cos tanned our back for 1 & half hour hor, then started raining..

after palawan beach, we went to tanjong beach..
the rain get heavier.. & wind is blowing hard..
we went to a nearby shelter lo.. then got bungs there..
till sis told me then i realised.. (x
i didnt really bother to take a glance at them..
hmmm.. dunno why.. ma eyes on beach girls only.. *laughs*

there's lotsa bungs & beach girls today!.. *smiles*
oh ya!.. saw this ang mo model!.. she's so chio can?!.. (x
hmmm.. i must say.. Those Phi maids, they got good figure..
i SWEAR!.. cos i saw it with ma eyes!.. they're sexy!.. aha!..

hmmm.. ytd chatted with alot of friends on msn.. (:
kinda busy thou..aha!.. checked movie time slot as well..
ermmm.. then chatted with Yiya on the phone..

well well.. Jo poor thingy!.. aha!.. her arms are aching due to push ups!.. (x
hopefully she's okay le arhs.. ah bo see how she's gonna write, draw & stuffs..

many pple falling sick sia.. dunno why.. hmmm..
drink more water lei peeps!.. (x

tanning session with sister next sunday!..
i'm loving the sun, the sea & the sand..
the 3"s" tt i like.. muahaha!..

oh wells.. i miss ma friends!.. hmmm..
tomorrow not much pple going to school..
so i'll be the good girl & go to school!..
yesh!.. i'm the good girl!.. i'm so guai.. (x
boo hoo.. lalala!.. hee..
i'm happy today..

`berls

+ berl*adel + 11:52 PM

Saturday, July 23, 2005

Jessica so cute & funny!.. she's nice to be with!.. (x
tuition today!.. *gosh*
tt tutor so funny & blur!.. but he's up to ma standard..
hee.. cos i like guai looking guys.. aha!..

hmmm.. after tuition, went to eat prata.. hee.. (x
then saw a teacher!.. she's went there with a active lo!..
then i rmb tt Ed told me her friend working in AES as a relief teacher..
then tt relief teacher from CGS de lo..
it's really oh ma god la!.. aha!..

tommorrow hopefully got sun..
i wanna go tanning with sis at sentosa.. (x
after tt going town bahs.. might be meeting Yiya..
hee.. Yiya.. i got lots to tell her also..

`berls

+ berl*adel + 11:31 PM

i'm having doubts.. i'm still having doubts..
i dunno what to do la.. ):
i dunno if i shld believe what she said..

omg!.. later gonna go for tuition la.. aha!.. (x
hmmm.. well.. ma lao gong & lao po scandaling!..
hmmm.. i'm sharing them with one another..
aha!.. nvm la.. as long as i'm their number 1 then okay le.. *laughs*

i'm watching HK series.. hee.. so nice lei..
hais.. buddy been sick for so long..
i hope she is fine.. i mean yiya la..
hopefully she go see doctor soon!..

Oh ya.. chatted with Renne ytd in msn.. hee..
she's from ma primary school de.. (:
she's really pretty lo!.. i bet alot of pple sure like her de.. *smiles*
we exchanged numbers.. she's cute..
i sent her ma bung friends photo!..
she said Yiya is cute.. hee..
yesh yesh!.. Yiya is always so cute!.. (:

lalala.. hong kong guys so nice looking!..
hong kong bungs also lo!..
Sang look really like a guy!.. but she's a bung from hong kong la.. (:

sometimes.. it's good to know alot of pple..
it's good to have lotsa friends..
but it's really such a headache if there's any agruements,
disagreements & misunderstandings & stuffs..

hmmm.. but i rmb telling jessica, i dun need a friend to survive..

cos sooner or later, one day, somehow we will drift apart with our friends ard us..
it's true tt we dun really have true friends ard us..
it's the same as we dun really find our true love..
everything tt happened are parts & parcels of life..
we gonna learn to move on..
*for u aaron*

`berls

+ berl*adel + 4:40 PM

Friday, July 22, 2005

today is just a unlucky day.. *sobs*
teachers didnt come for lessons.. *damnit*
i've been cold towards dean.. i dunno why..
i've been like scolding him so smt.. i dunno why..
aiya.. i dunno what i'm doing.. i dunno what i'm thinking..

wasted 2 hrs for nothing.. no e-math & physics at all..
then didnt attend mother tonuge lesson at all..
cos eileen got some problems with her stead la..
aha!.. i know at 1st she wont say anything, then i type in hp & asked her what happened..
por thing sia she.. but i think her stead is trying to repay what eileen done in the past la.. (x

hmmm.. went town with burger & buddy..
went for lunch.. hee.. (x
kinda nice to meet up with burger..
however we're not tt close anymore.. i'm so sad!.. ):
well.. i dunno la.. hais.. we took neos after tt..
hee.. then i'm so happy.. cos i know her so long..
then 1st time took neos together!.. *smiles*

hmmm.. went home early.. tired too.. ):
oh ya!.. CHIJ girls so cute & funny!.. hee..
hmmm.. got 3 bungs/actives or PL la.. they stared at burger when we walked passed them..
they're so cute cos their hair style same sia.. *laughs*

oh wells!.. i feel so clean now.. cos i'm done waxing after ma bath when i reached home..
hee.. shiok sia tt feeling!.. (:

hmmm.. i must said tt if i could turn back time..
i'll do many changes.. i swear..
cos many things really happened this few weeks la..
so tired can?.. ):

hmmm.. just kinda settle something..
hopefully no misunderstandings le..
i apologised for ma poor attitude & temper..

i knew tt i've change.. much more hot-tempered then before..
but i'll try to be clam & stuffs next time..

ermmm.. moses & hafiz like ma massage!.. aha!.. i'm so proud now.. (x
oh well.. been talking dirty with guys in ma class..
damn.. then i got nightmares when i sleep.. *gosh*

aiya.. but i kidding only.. they know i'm palyful & i like girls..
so they wont do anything de la..
just play along will do lo.. (:

suddenly, i miss jovi, it's been long since i seen her..
angeline too!.. i wanna see the change in her!.. (x
i miss ma cousins too.. aha!..
i miss those times we spent.. plucking rambutans & stuffs..

`berls.. i need time to get over *u

+ berl*adel + 10:52 PM

Thursday, July 21, 2005

hee.. i'm HAPPY today..
cos she wrote me testi..
she brighten up ma day!.. (:

thou i'm not feel good deep down in ma heart these few days..
cos been quarreling with ma family.. *sighs*

yesh.. i still like her still.. but i'll slowly let go..
cos i know we cant be together..
all i wish is she's fine & happy with her life..
as long as she's happy, i'll be contented..

Mei yee is ma lucky charm.. (:
i told her why i said tt too.. hee..

`berls.. happy cos she brighten up ma day (:

+ berl*adel + 7:19 PM

Wednesday, July 20, 2005

FUCK LA.. FUCKING GUYS!.. FUCKING DAD..
FUCK FUCK FUCK.. FUCK OFF MA LIFE MAN!..
DAMNIT!.. I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE..

I GONNA PROVE THOSE GUYS WRONG!..
I GONNA STUDY HARD..
IN A FEW YRS TIME I SURE GONNA MOVE OUT OF THIS DAMN HOUSE..

SCHOOL SUCKS TODAY!..
SO BORING!.. I FEEL SO TIRED.. *SIGHS*

I DUNNO WHAT I'LL DO IF I CANT TK IT AANYMORE..

PERHAPS I WONT BE BLOGGING SO OFTEN..
PEEPS, IF I DIDNT REPLY ANY OF YOU GUYS SMSES, SORRY..
CALL ME IF THERE'S SOMETHING IMPORTANT..

`berls

+ berl*adel + 7:24 PM

Tuesday, July 19, 2005

oh well.. i slept for awhile ytd night..
before waking up & do ma homework..

quarreled with dad & bro.. *damn guys*
went to bro's room to study.. cos sis sleeping in our own rm mahs..
dun wanna wake her up..
then living rm was so damn noisy.. cos bro watching hk series..
Kitchen table full of foods.. how to study, right?..
dad accused me of chatting on the phone lo!.. *arghs*
i didnt!.. i was sleeping la!..

i cant move to serangoon!.. *arghs*
i went to mum's rm to study then..
was kinda pissed off.. damn guys!.. they cant understand me..
ma eyes like fishball le lo.. cos was crying in the afternoon.. then stupis arse la..
stupid dad & bro quarreled with me!.. *arghs*

really feel like breaking down.. i'm so tired..
so tired of all the quarrels & misunderstandings between me & ma family..

well.. smsed with her, Ching & Clive ytd night..

hmmm.. happy to hear her voice!.. aha!..
then we smsed one another..
she told me smt lo..
then i offered her help..
but she like dun wanna accept it arhs..
dunno why also..
aha!.. but all i can do now is to stand by her & help her as a friend..
i didnt expect anything much or anything in return..
hee.. then i told her she's blessed to have me as a friend la..
then she said she vomit blood or rather food cos she just taken supper.. (x
but she said she's kidding la..
i dunno.. she's just cute & funny..
she's blur at times too.. (x
oh ya!.. i told her abt the inbox thingy too..
oh man.. i think she must have had think tt i'm so silly..
but i told her why i cried.. aha..
`berls still likes HER (: *blush blush*

Ching was funny.. cos i told her i got fishball eyes..
then she said she only heard goldfish eyes & panda eyes before..
then i was like telling her dun laugh at ma silliness.. (x

Clive "hubby" told me what happened.. i was kinda shocked..
hopefully clive "hubby" feels better now..

school today is alright!.. ma neck damn pain!..
wanna die le.. cos of ma art thingy.. *sighs*
i aint satisfied with ma art work still..
gonna redo it again i guess..
i got no choice.. *arghs*

`berls going berserk

+ berl*adel + 6:40 PM

Monday, July 18, 2005

i'm so sad.. i'm falling into depression.. *sighs*
i actually wanna clear ma sent items..
then i accidently clear ma inbox smses..

now it's all gone.. forever gone..
i can never get those smses back.. never again..
all those smses give me motivation at times too..
those smses carry different meanings..
they're damn important to me la.. *sighs*
cos everytime when i'm free.. i'll read thru those smses..

i'm such a failure.. it's all ma fault tt all the smses are gone..
how stupid can i be.. *sighs*
i feel like crying.. damnit..
i felt so useless..

`berls depressed..

+ berl*adel + 4:10 PM

Sunday, July 17, 2005

i'm so sad.. din go tannign today.. *sighs*
din go town today for movies.. *cries*

sis went out with sharon..
she reached hm at 5am plus in the morning..
she was drunk.. sharon was even worst!..

the went indochine lo.. piangs!.. i wanna celebrate ma b/d there..
i gonna find a ic la.. hee.. i'm sure i can get one..
oh ya!.. on ma b/d, i wanna put a tatoo.. (:
i got tt design le.. sis design for me.. *smiles*
i gonna save money la!.. ahaha..

well.. Oscar kinda sad.. she got problems with her so called "gf"..
hopefully she's fine lo.. *smiles*
she's like kinda in the same boat as me..
din told her what happen in the past thou..

sighs.. i kinda miss her.. but i cant tell her..
i just gonna remain friends with her..
oh well.. it's better than nothing..

Jovi called me just now.. she's sick..
poor thing.. hope she gets well soon..
i still care!.. cos she's like a baby..
dunno how to take care of herself..
somemore sick le dun wanna see doc..
tsk tsk.. how can she be so stubborn..
hopefully Wathone brings her to doctor.. hee.. (x

Reef's sick too.. she got fever.. *gosh*
hopefully she see doc & rest well..
why izzit so many pple falling sick?.. *ponders*
how i wish i'm sick.. then i can pon sch.. (x

i've slack too much.. aha.. think it's gonna be the end of me..
hee.. been watching hk series these few days.. (:
tt show very nice sia.. ahaha!..
got pretty babes & handsome guys!.. *smiles*

`berls

+ berl*adel + 4:56 PM

chatted with clive "hubby" on msn..
hee.. felt better somehow.. (:
kinda show out ma "ah lian" attitude..
was really very pissed off la.. *sighs*

ma right arm aching.. ytd played badminton..
then now muscle ache le.. *sighs*
damn.. i got ma "aunt's visit"..
but still i gonna go tanning on in the morning!..

well.. i'm a blessed girl.. aha!.. (x
i'm blessed cos i know lotsa nice pple..
but there's lotsa problems bothering me.. ):

haha.. ryann lao gong so funny..
alrites.. i shall keep it as a secret..
i cant blog in ma blog what really happened..
who know her damn fucking ex will check ma blog..

i wanna learn cantonese.. i swear i will learn!..
after O's i gonna sign up a dance thingy with jessica.. (:
well well.. then i gonna work too.. then i wanna save money..
i wanna go hong kong to shop..
perhaps i can meet up with Sang & Edith.. (:
they shall be ma tour guide in hong kong.. *smiles*

met sis for dinner.. before tt she was so attitude..
keep using the word "FUCK"..
damn la.. spoilt ma mood..
but still, everything was okay le..
haha.. then there's thisi bung working at "Sakura"..
sis said she will somehow grow a dick.. then i asked why..
sis said tt bung got a dick face.. *laughs*
i agreed to it la.. tt bung damn fair lo!.. then she look like KNS..

i regretted knowing somebody..
really regretted.. if it's not cos of tt somebody..
i bet things wont turn out this way..
i bet i wont be hurt time & times..
wont be such a fool for so long.. *sighs*

`berls

+ berl*adel + 1:40 AM

Friday, July 15, 2005

things been bothering me.. *sighs*

i wondered if i'll regret in the future..
regret alot of things..
well.. had listening compre today.. think i cant pass la..
ma answers different from ma friends..

well.. i'm so damn pek chek now..
so many things la..
ma attitude getting bad to worst.. sorry abt it..

had PE lessons today.. played badminton..
was like so shiok la.. cos i vent all ma anger while playing badminton..
felt abit better la.. played badminton with Eileen..
she's a better player than the others.. so ya.. (:

hmmm.. after listening, went fagging with ma bung buddy..
then told her what's bothering me these few days..
didnt tell her the whole thingy.. cos no time at all..
so ya.. think i tell her next time bahs..

grandaunt coming back next week.. shld me moving in to her hse..
i cant wait for the day!.. *smiles*

well.. was so happy to receive ma "used to be ah gong's" sms..
she wished me good luck for listening.. hee..
i smsed her back too.. wish her good luck.. *smiles*
thought she wont remember me arhs..
luckily she not tt heartles.. (x
oh else sure break ma heart.. aha!..
finally got tt kinda friendship back la.. (:

i dunno why.. i hugged baby taz ytd instead of baby tigger..
both are ma cute softie.. *smiles*
i love them so much.. but i aint hugging baby taz for a long time..
however, i think tt ma baby taz more cuter!.. only one teeth..
cant blame.. i feed him with too much sweets..
thus ma baby taz left with one tooth..
ohh.. i'm a bad mummy.. *gosh*

`berls

+ berl*adel + 7:42 PM

Thursday, July 14, 2005

dad was fucking noisy..
barking like some mad dog on street!..

was finding resources for ma art.. helping Adi to find resources too..
damn ma dad!.. he's fucking noisy.. oh hell!.. damn fucking shit guy!..
how i wish he can donate some of his damn voice to grandpa..
cos grandpa is a mute & deaf person..

i cant wait to get out of this damn house of mine!..
i wanna go serangoon stay!.. i'm waiting!..

ohh.. Dad scolded me.. he said thte word "fuck"..
ma english is damn lousy.. he's even worst..
all he does is called his friends when he just reached home..
then he started using english & hokkien.. *faints*

he actually set a bad example in front of me..
i aint gonna care.. whatever vulgarites he said..
i'll use it on him too.. i'm so damn pissed off!..

he said i got a fucking brain.. damn him..
i shouted at him.. i said he's a fucking damn dad who got a fucking foul mouth & i wonder why he's fucking bias towards me..

been having problems these few days already..
he still bark like some mad dog..
ohh.. he damn fucking bastard..

i'm so angry now!.. *arghs*

`berls

+ berl*adel + 8:01 PM

buddy din go sch today..
i was kinda tired..
i was late for sch.. *sighs*
cos didnt sleep well last night at all..

Ching smsed me ytd.. *smiles*
she's a caring friend i must say..

oh ya.. chatted with Yun Ru ytd on msn..
she's really funny thou.. silly girl la she..
the things she told me what she done & stuffs towards the girl she likes..
then she ask me how i tell a girl i like her?..
then i just told Yun Ru what i'll do & stuffs lo..

well.. ermmm.. Yun Ru smsed me this morning..
she wanna exchanged numbers in msn ytd mahs..
then exchange lo.. nvm one mahs..

Chatted with Jovi on msn ytd too.. Not tt Jovi tt resembles ma ex..
her nick is angel5 in fridae..

well.. ytd was on phone with burger.. then we chatted lo..
did told her what happened & stuffs for the past 5 mths..
then she told me her problesm & stuffs too..

damn pissed off with her gf.. dunno what the hell she wanna from burger..
i've never seen such a girl b4.. *bitch*
burger is like so damn lost.. she dunno what to do now..
damn.. i advice burger to break up with her gf..
aha.. i know i sound bad.. but love is selfish..
if u gonna give in to the other party everytime, u're the one at the losing ends..
burger is just like a bird, locked up in a cage for ages..

well.. burger said tt she's afraid tt her gf might commit sucide..
her gf cut her waist before lo.. i felt it's so damn childish..
i told burger to ask her go & die la.. die faster better!..
what for cut ur waist but didnt die & end up being hospitalise?..
waste the money, human resources & stuffs..
dunno what her gf thinking la.. so childish.. *faints*

then i told burger it's so damn childish & stupid of burger's gf to commit sucide if burger is gonna break-up with her..
if she's so brave & so decisive, then go ahead & die la..
i dun believe burger's gf will commit sucide if burger break-up with her..

anyways, all these stupid acts are just threatening.. it aint call love..
i mean if u threaten to hurt urself just to get ur gf to stay by ur side, aint u selfish?..
why cant u think tt it's better to end this r/s since ur partner doesnt wanna continue?..
there's sure smt lacking in the r/s, thus ur partner wanna a stop what..

ohh.. whatever la.. i really dunno what to say anymore le..
hopefully ma friends they will get what i mean..
esp those tt are facing problems with their gf la..

`berls

+ berl*adel + 4:30 PM

Wednesday, July 13, 2005

FUCKING SHIT.. STUPID BITCH BUNG!..
MAKE UP STORIES FOR WHAT.. DAMN U!..

U'RE THE WORST BUNG I EVER KNEW!..
NOW I BELIEVE WHAT OTHERS USED TO TELL ME!..

am so worried for her.. i dunno why..
i still like her & i care alot..
but i didnt express maself tt i still like & care for her..
all i can care for her is only as a friend..

just now, i told her i still like her..
it's true i SWEAR!..

maybe i'm just a fool, like what ma friends said abt me..
but i didnt care.. i still like her..
i dunno what's attracting me.. but i still like her..

Met jaff today after sch, then home..
then went out with friends..

called burger but she didnt answer ma call..
she was in town.. but didnt have chance to see burger..
i felt so stress.. so many to tell burger..
*sighs*

once again, i'm so stress, so pissed, so worried, so angry & so sad..

what am i suppose to do?.. i really dunno la!.. *arghs*

sometimes i wonder if i ever expressed ma care & concern in wrong ways..
maybe i gonna change ma ways of expressing care & concern towards pple ard me..
well.. i dunno what to do..

i really feel like crying.. i held back ma tears..
but i'm sure tt i gonna cry in the middle of night..

`berls

+ berl*adel + 9:45 PM

Tuesday, July 12, 2005

i aint in good mood!.. dun pissed me off!..
i'm damn fucking moody now..

cos of one damn sms..
i used to love him alot but i hate him to the core now..
yet he still got the cheek to contact me?!..

i woke up today & saw burger's 4ward sms..
i'm so happy.. really happy.. cos i thought she forgotten abt me..
i miss burger.. i got lots to tell her..
or rather when i see her, i'll hug her tight & cry out loud..

i admit, i may look strong on the outside..
but i kept every sadness & stuffs in ma heart..
keep quiet, is worst than crying..
cos ma heart is crying everynight.. *sighs*

things been happening since feb till now..
no good things happened at all..
ma life is in a mess..

am i a failure?.. yesh, clive hubby said, no matter what life goes on..
but i tried hard to move on with it & yet i realised, after a long period of time, i just took one step..
how pathetic can it be?.. aint i a failure?..

sch was still alrite today.. Piggy boy so cute.. Miguel also very cute..
well.. during chemistry, i had fun..i love the experiment.. (:

pple see me laughing here & there with ma friends..
but i doubt they know how i really feel..

tt's all for today.. i got no mood to blog anymore..

+ berl*adel + 6:15 PM

Monday, July 11, 2005

i'm so worried for her.. i dunno why..
hopefully she wont get hurt or whatever by somebody..
happy cos got talk today!.. (:

well.. i'm sick.. ):
got fever.. *sighs*
tummy ache too..

so tired.. i gonna go sleep later.. (x

FUCKING monkey!.. diao me today.. ass her!..
so damn skinny.. so flat!.. i wonder if her husband enjoying FUCKING her!..

Jaff's caring!.. a good senior i have arhs!..
i so proud.. aha!.. she working still can sms me..
must be too free arhs.. (x

shld be going town with Jaff bahs..
i dun wanna go tanning.. bag sure damn heavy.. hee..
wednesday wearing nike dunk to school.. (:

i hate tt damn fucking family breaker bitch!..
stupid arsehole bung i ever seen in ma life!..
34 yrs old, cant get girl izzit, then go find married woman!.. *arghs*
all thanks to u, ma friend is damn pissed off!..

+ berl*adel + 5:53 PM

Sunday, July 10, 2005

i got no motivation to study at all..
been slacking ard.. dunno why sia.. ):

well.. went town with sister today!..
took neos together.. been so long since we took neos..

i'm loving maself each day.. i dunno why..
aha!.. (x
ryann lao gong so cute..

somehow i miss hubby.. dunno why..
chatted with Jaff just now.. hee..

well.. i'm so tired.. i felt hot when i'm talking to Jaff..
think i'm not feeling well at all.. *sighs*

`berls

+ berl*adel + 11:57 PM

i went to Causeway point with siblings..
watched "Six" that thai movie.. (:
it's horror movie.. it's a nice show i swear..
but one thing.. i dun find it very scary at all.. (x

well.. tt place brought back memories..
memories of jake & me.. *smiles*
it's always like that.. went to causeway point, always think of her..
but i'm trying hard not to thou..
well.. it's much better compared to last time..
at least i dun think of our past for that long after i left causeway point..
hee.. got improvement.. isn't it?.. (:

shiks coming to ma hse tml!.. cant wait to see her!..
aha!.. i gonna ask her play games with me!..
play PS games or we go online arhs.. (:
if not, she must sleep with me.. (x
*eh siao!.. dun think dirty arhs!..*

hmmm.. i'm missing Eugenia!.. aha!.. cant wait to see her in school..
she's so cute.. so small size.. that cute girl that i consider as ma lil mei.. (x
she's so sweet la!.. she resembles charmaine.. but Eugenia CUTER!.. (:

chatted with mel just now.. hee..
i agreed to what she said la.. i'm more suitable to be a PL..
i got bad temper & attitude.. it will get worst if i'm att with a bung..
then we were talking abt who suitable for me & stuffs..
so funny.. she named out quite alot.. aha!..

then i told her, if i'm a damn fucking slutty str8 girl..
i'll have sex with the guy if he's willing to spend on me.. (x
but i'm not tt kinda girl la.. hee..

then suddenly i told her that i felt bungs & guys no difference..
told her why i said so & stuffs..
damn!.. ma impression on bungs not tt good as before le.. (x

oh ya!.. sis been crazy!.. keep telling me abt her director!.. *arghs*
make me so jealous!.. got this feeling her director is a PL lei!..
then i told sis to go for the director la!.. *laughs*
i know i'm bad la.. aha!.. but it sound tt the PL director is so damn cool..

wells.. been e-mailing with becca(the bballer) since tt day i saw her at herden..
then told her lotsa things too.. aha!.. she's cute & funny..
love mailing with her.. tt's all i can say.. hee.. (x

somebody called me ytd at abt 1.45am but i fell asleep le..
dunno who called me.. *ponders*

i'm loving ma darling lao gong ryann so much!..
she's cute & funny.. never fails to put a smile on ma face..
she said ma voice is sexy when i wake up.. *faints*
whose voice aint sexy when they wake up arhs?..
aha!.. i gonna help her find infor from *somebody*
hopefully everything turns out fine.. (:
i'm looking for girls for ma lao gong!.. see i'm so good to her!.. (x
but aint she bad?.. she dun look out for bungs for me..
aha!.. nope!.. i'm kidding la.. i dun need bungs at all..
cos i'm always so busy with ma stuffs..
lao gong knows what i mean!.. (x
always mention different bungs & all to her.. aha!..

hmmm.. ytd ma attitude towards Clive "hubby" abit bad..
dunno why.. kinda not please with what she told me..
but i understand how's she's feeling la..
dunno she's okay now nots.. *ponders*
then what she've told me, somehow brought back memories of ma ex..
i said tt she's more horrible than ma ex..
before she went offline, she said, "i am a flirty basturd tt dont deserved to be on this world" & " i'm a fucking idiot"
i cant sleep well cos the words keep running in ma mind..
perhaps what i've said hurt her too..

Jaff just called me!.. she told me she went party with her ex & they done smt.. *faints*
she sound like as thou she's abit drunk..
aha!.. she just reached home then called me.. she's taking a bath now before calling me..
asked her go take a bath 1st lo.. freshen up mahs.. (:

one last thing!.. i've been listening to Alex Toh's love songs.. (:
it's nice nice nice & NICE!.. hee..

`berls

+ berl*adel + 3:33 AM

Friday, July 08, 2005

went chua chu kang stadium after sch today..
went to watch the rely thingy..
Pat.G took part mahs.. with the twins & the maine..

went there with Kristoper, Shiks lao po & Izzah berry sister!.. (:
hmmm.. am so tired.. dying like that.. ):
there's lotsa pple there!.. saw ma ex la.. cos he used to be in track in Assumption English School mahs..
but then it's like.. we're behaving like strangers.. *sighs*

i so bored then i sms Ching Har.. asked if she's in school anots.. then i told her i'm at stadium..
then she told me she's at cck stadium too..
saw some JC pple la.. aha!.. but cant see her at all arhs.. (x
there's pretty girls ard, cute bungs & average looking guys..

Halfway, Jaff called me then i answered lo.. then we chatted awhile la..
haha.. then told her abt the height thingy of a bung.. blah blah blah..

ma art is in a mess!.. i wanna redo..
but mr ang dun let la!.. *arghs*

alrites.. today POA is free lesson!..
then miss sim came to our class..
chatted with her lo.. hee.. then told her lotsa things..
i said smt abt monkey CHEN la.. then skinny monkey!..
aha!.. then miss sim pull ma ear.. but is play play de lo..

hmmm.. saw *her* & alexis in school.. it's her oral today..
wanna say good luck de but she like nv see me like that..
then i went to find miss siti, then saw jesslin lo..
hee.. then wish jesslin good luck.. then ask jesslin help me wish *her* good luck lo..

fuck shit.. the msn sucks so much.. connection problems..
dont try & be a hypocrite!.. damn u!.. get outta ma life!..
stupid fucking jerk!.. u're just a pain in ma neck!..

think tt's all for today bahs..

`berls

+ berl*adel + 10:40 PM

Thursday, July 07, 2005

i cant stand ma family at all!.. *damn*

whatever!.. once grand aunt is back!..
i gonna ask her to let me stay at her hse!..
i need PEACE!.. i rather be alone NOW!..
so i can STUDY!..

i aint studying at all.. what the hell!..
i got no mood!.. no mood!.. no mood la!..

this FUCKING family of mine!..
so inconsiderate!.. *arghs*

i HATE school!..
i HATE the freaking idiotic damn ass guy!..
u're the one who broke the promises!..
u're getting on ma nerves!..

get outta ma way!.. irritating freaking bastard!..

ARGHS!.. bro is making me horny now!..
but i aint getting horny!.. damn him!..
ma neck is so ticklish now.. ass la!..
but good arhs.. practice makes perfect..
next time pple cant make horny.. aha!.. (x
bro had been "disturbing" me these with days..
make me so "buay ta han"..

mum asked me wear bra at home!.. she said bro is now big le.. must wear..
eeeeewww!.. i dun want la!.. siao eh..
go out wear bra, at home wear bra also mehs?..
over ma dead body.. i aint gonna wear bra at home!..
so what if there's guys at home?..
i cant be bothered at all..

i hate to wear bras!.. so sickening..
like as thou 2 bowls stuck there!..
hate that feeling!.. *arghs*

`berls so damn pissed

+ berl*adel + 8:15 PM

Wednesday, July 06, 2005

i think i failed ma oral..
damn!.. i got no mood today at all!.. *arghs*

sorry peeps if ma attitude kinda bad these days..

Ching Har didnt go school today!..
aint she a naughty girl?.. aha!.. cos she woke up late!.. (x

i'm nearly late for school today.. but never la..
been busy with school.. so tired!..
i'm not just facing school problems!.. but also other problems..

`berls

+ berl*adel + 5:46 PM

Tuesday, July 05, 2005

oh ya.. i forgot!.. That zheng fang!..
hit ma butt today with her book.. *arghs*
so pain sia.. she hit a few times lo.. ):

later ma butt become flat how sia?..
i will cry one lei..
i front already so small like tt sia..
later no butt, i can go die arhs.. ahaha!.. (x

hmmm.. sis is sick.. poor her..
*god bless*

+ berl*adel + 8:21 PM

once & for all.. again!.. i'm so tired to think abt anything..
i'm trying not to think..
but things just keep going in ma mind..

well.. Ching Har sent me a mms.. "Clive"..
then she was saying her bag is tt brand la..
then tt mms is the pic for Clive, ma "gf"(as what Ching Har thought)
i told her Clive not ma gf..
cos i created a blog for me & clive only..
then tt time i ask Ching Har go look at the layout lo..
haha.. then she saw "Clive" tt name on the blogskin..
thus thought Clive is ma "gf"..

Ching Har funny la.. aha!.. (:
i'm so shocked when she sent me tt mms.. (x
hmmm.. am tired.. sch so boring!..
study till ma head burst la!..

Saw buddy Yiya!.. aha.. she's cute.. i like her hair..
but think style up more nice la..
tt FUCKING ah tan la!.. asked her wash off.. *arghs*
well, then at 1.30pm saw Yiya outside toilet there..
then talked to her a little while.. hee..
then ma dearest Mrs Norman(math teacher), said smt abt me..
i thought is cos i nearly touch Yiya's chest then she saw lo..
but she was refering smt else.. it's ma sport bra she's refering to..
but i'm blur in the 1st place.. haha!.. then Moses told me!..
he said, "it's as bright as the sun"..
by saying that, i know what he meant la.. aha!..
cos ma sport bra is orange in colour.. nike de.. aha!..
that time went town with Shiks, Mj, Jase & ma sis then bought de lo.. (x

i miss chatting on phone with Yiya!.. so many things to tell her..
so many problems i'm facing.. wanna tell her so badly..

well!.. shit.. i forgot smt!.. Jovi called me!..
i forgot return call.. aha!.. shall do tt later i guess.. (x
i'm missing so many pple la..

ma friends who are working.. miss them so much..
it's been long since we hang out together, have fun & stuffs..
when can i spend those times with them again?..
we're all busy with out life.. ):

i wanna hug burger.. i wanna see her..
cos seeing her, i can put aside what's troubling me..
burger is so cute & understanding.. (:
thou she's 22 this yr le.. but she's not behaving like one..
i love playing ard with her.. have fun & stuffs.. (x

i'm suffering from *dunno what* kinda sickness..
think i gonna go crazy one day.. *sighs*

how i wish someone is up there to hold me tight..
i need tt special hug, comfort & shoulders..
will i ever have one?.. i dunno..

`berls depressed

+ berl*adel + 7:00 PM

Monday, July 04, 2005

i'm so lost once again..
sighs.. so many things happening..

i dunno what to do.. ):

+ berl*adel + 5:08 PM

Sunday, July 03, 2005

woke up at ard 12pm.. Clive "hubby" called me..
i slept at 5am la.. haha!.. means i only slept for 7 hrs like tt..
received a sms from jaff this morning.. (:
she's funny.. aha!.. go work le also tell me.. *faints*

oh ya!.. Ryann lao gong smsed me ytd too..
haha!.. she siao.. asked abt ma malay friends..
then she said wanna chinese gf then say can stead with me hor?..
then i laugh.. she admit she's naughty la.. *laughs*
think she miss me too much arhs.. then say all these things..
aha!.. she said wanna hug me.. then i say i hug, hug lo..
she said she pai sei.. later she wanna hug me i dun wanna.. *faints*
it's just a hug, i wont mind de mahs.. ahahah!.. (x

hmmm.. Clive THOUGHT i LIKE jaff!.. *faints*
i dun like jaff la!.. i'm refering to someone else..
i never meet up with jaff before & she's too old for me..

well.. went to visit grandpa with mum & bro..
he's cute i swear!.. loving him lots with ma heart always..
nobody can replace my grandpa.. aha!..
i prefer both grandpa than both of ma grandma.. (x

oh ya!.. can u guys believe it?.. Hazel smsed me..
spologised for what she done.. everything.. those quarrels & all..
i'm like so blur when she sms me.. cos i didnt save her number in ma phone..
then we smsed with one another.. aha!..

oh man!.. i'm been slacking all the way.. thou i may be attentive in class..
but when actual examinations came, ma mind all blank de lo..
what i'm doing, just enjoy ma life off la.. ahaha!..
i met sister at her work place.. then we go ard shopping for high heels shoes!..
cant blame.. we're short!.. we need to wear high heels!.. (:

ermmm.. David Beckham & others "Da Ren Wu" staying at swissotel!..
they deciding where to held olympics in yr 2012.. *smiles*
do u guys know how i know?.. it's cos ma sis working there..
then she told me de.. hee!..

oh ya!.. got alot of police there lei!.. at raffles there!..
got SDU also!.. *faints*
they very scary lo!.. ahahah!.. (x
but their build not bad la.. some also very handsome wors..

oh ya!.. did i mention?.. mum & me saw a bung on bus..
mum said tt bung is disgusting.. i agreed to it!..
she's fucking fair la.. she got no style at all!..
then i told mum that ma friends better..
mum said ma friends sure as disgusting as tt bung we saw on bus..
then i was so angry!..
i shot her back, "Regina lei?.. she's cute & huggable, she dun dress like tt disgusting bung what.."
mum replied, "oh ya, how is she?.. why she so small in size & she really look cute, like little boy"

i'm shocked when mum replied me that la.. (:
but now.. haha.. dun think we will ever have a chance to go out again.. as friends.. no longer anymore bahs..
she's busy with her life now.. dunno doing what either..
but i hope she is studying hard for her O's & get to the poly & the choice of course she wanna..

dinner at Outback!.. haha.. i ate "alice spring chicken" & sis ate pasta..
Jaff called me.. i smsing with *her* then accidently cancelled jaff's call.. (x

hmmm.. *she* right la.. 1yr 6 mths is not long enough..
cos i like a bung for tt long..
think tt bung is the only girl i will like tt long bahs..
it depends actually.. see who can capture ma heart again for tt long..
am i a fool to like someone so long?.. i also dunno..

but the longest i like a person is 4 yrs, his name is jerome..
hopefully, someday, i'll like a girl more than 4 yrs.. (:

all i ask for is pple i know to be happy always.
overcome all setbacks & stuffs..

*thou i may like u & u got someone in heart, i'll still be by ur side till end of time, as long as i shall live.. but i'll see u as ma good friend, i wont wanna even lost u as ma friend*

`berls

+ berl*adel + 11:08 PM

tired!.. haha..
went out.. morning then afternoon went home sleep..
till ard 4plus afternoon then wake up call clive.. ma "hubby"..
hmmm.. chatted with her 1hr 22 mins..
ermmm.. went town met up wit sis..

-dinner at plaza sing-

before tt jaff called me.. i tot is which guy..
she sound so guy la!.. (x
hmmm.. shocked she called me.. aha!..

maybe i still have feelings for her..
but i know i cant tell her..
cos i'm not suppose to do so..
somemore, it's not the right time to do all these..
guess.. i gonna like her in silence still..
thou it's really miserable to keep it in ma heart la..
all i ask is she to be happy.. *gos bless & watch over her*
i hope she is doing fine now..

oh ya.. peeps.. if u guys cant contact me at ma hp..
sorry.. cos i gonna ask mum to keep ma hp..
i wanna concentrate ma studies for time being..
hope u guys understand.. (:

`berls-missing someone

+ berl*adel + 3:34 AM